Creepy Crawly

Tonight Conner, Parker, Corey (Mark and Kelly's son) and I made rice krispy treat spiders. They turned out so cute, and we had LOTS of fun! This isn't the best picture, but here is "Creepy Crawly"... That is what Conner chose to name him. This is one of the ones Conner made.


Last week we made some Halloween cookies, and the other day we carved a little pumpkin. We are totally getting into the Halloween spirit. The boys LOVE to go look at the costumes and "spooky" things they have at Walmart, Target, Party City. Whereever really. Last year we made the mistake of taking Conner to a Spirit store. If you've ever been you know why it was a mistake. I get scared in there, I don't know how we got out of there without Conner being terrified of Halloween, but we did, and this year he is totally loving the season. I know that some people don't believe in celebrating Halloween, and I sort of have mixed feelings, but I think it is fun to do all the fun little things we can do together as a family. So, we do celebrate (even though I hate to use that word). I will also post some pictures real soon of the boys in their Halloween costumes... Wanda:)

Miss...

When we are away from Parker for any length of time and we see him again he has begun to say "Miss," and then he makes a sad face. Aww... He missed us. Today we (the boys and I) went to church for my bible study. Parker HATES going to church. He cries EVERYTIME we drop him off. Well, he has begun to LOVE this woman that organizes the childcare for our bible study. Her name is Lori. She is so sweet, because if Parker gets put in a different classroom than she is in that day, she will actually go find him and bring him into her classroom, which he loves. Today I dropped off Conner, and was walking to drop off Parker, and here she came... So Parker went right to her and off they walked... no tears. YAY! And when bible study was all over... No "Miss." Sad, but good!
Although tonight I went to work for a few hours and when I got home he did let me know that he missed me. What a sweet kid...
Also, I forgot to say that when I picked Parker up after bible study Lori let me know just how sweet Parker is... as if I didn't know:) She said that he was kissing and hugging all the other kids. What a sweetie! Yesterday we went to the mall for a little bit while Conner was in school and Parker made friends with a special needs kid there and he kept kissing and hugging him. The kid was a little weary at first, but then by the time we were leaving Parker leaned in to hug him (and I think for once he was going to leave it at that) and the kid made it a point to kiss him!LOL He really is such a snuggly bug!

Hair cute ...

On Thursday night Darin's sister Dawn came into town on a last minute trip... We are so excited that she is here.
I had told a friend of mine that I would watch her twins on Friday morning, while she went on a field trip with her older son, so yesterday morning Dawn and I headed out for the Pumpkin Patch with all four boys in tow. We actually had lots of fun! And somehow it never got real hectic (I fully expected it to, since we had 3 two year olds and a three year old with us in a fun, crowded place). A family in Flower Mound puts on an awesome Pumpkin Patch every year, and so far we have taken advantage every year (since we've had kids).
Then, after we got home from the PP and took naps I gave the boys haircuts!

So I thought you might enjoy some pictures! above: Parker climbing yesterday
above: All of us minus the camera men at the
pumpkin patch yesterday

above: This is last year (same shirt, so I know its confusing...

Somehow their shirts still fit them though so I took advantage).

above: Last year again...

above: This picture is from our trip to the Pumpkin Patch in 2006.

above: Conner 2006

above: Conner 2005

You can't really tell much of a difference with Parkers...

But I was really impressed with myself, because I was able to use my new clippers and give him a fade.

Conner's new haircut... We'll see how long the mohawk lasts!

Darin may veto it when he gets home... but for now!

And, Conner loves it!

label me crazy!

Ok, well despite being sick (not still... again! UGH!) I cannot sleep. You're going to laugh that this is why I can't sleep... but seriously it is to blame.

I got a label maker. It is the cause of my inability to sleep. Tonight I went through and labeled my scrapbook stuff organizer. And my plastic set of drawers for my fabric. Trust me I did not organize anything, just labeled about 8 drawers that were already somewhat organized... I just moved a few things around to put truth to the labels.

Well... then I went to bed. Darin fell asleep (as usual! He hardly ever has a hard time sleeping). I on the otherhand got totally overwhelmed by what needs to be labeled, whats more... what needs to be organized. I am a busy body for the most part. When Conner was born for about the first 8 months I got really into T.V. and I had a schedule of what I was watching and when, and I pretty much watched T.V. all day. Honestly is there anything else to do when you are nursing all day long?! But then I finally got off my butt and started doing other things. I had never been a big t.v watcher before that... and I quite honestly got really bored with it. In fact I can hardly stand to think of the shows I used to watch without getting irritated... But my proneness to irritation is a completely different blog... see the one below.lol Anyway, I am again not into T.V. I also am usually not into napping. So, when the boys take their naps, and after they go to bed I usually get my house clean, sew, scrapbook, have quiet time really whatever needs to be done, but I am usually productive. As of late, I have been sleeping everytime they are sleeping. Or I am on the internet...LOL... like right now. I have not been doing anything. Well, I have been keeping my house fairly clean, but I have not gotten anything done other than that. So... back to the labeling thing. I feel like I have to clean out my closets, pantry, the boys toys, my clothes... Also earlier today I was trying to make up a menu. I don't really know who reads this blog... and I don't know if you know, but right now we have some friends living with us. Making dinner is such a chore for me (as I am sure for any mom) just because I never know what to make. Now I have more pressure for making a good variety of foods, because we have guests (even though they are totally not picky). Also Darin has been getting a little irritated (and I can't say I don't agree) with my frequent trips to the grocery store. If I could just do my menu and a correlating grocery list I could cut out a bunch of trips. The problem is, I just don't feel like it.LOL... Right now we have two refrigerators and a pantry full of food. To Darin this means that we shouldn't have to go to the grocery store.... But everytime I got to make something we are missing something. None of the food goes together. Sometimes I guess this just happens... but another reason is because our friends who are living here brought a whole bunch of food with them, and some of its not stuff I usually make. Anyway, my point is I desperately need to go through everything and make a list of what we have and incorporate it into my menu. Easier said than done with two little kids and no motivation.

Also, I have not been on a consistent workout routine in FOREVER it seems like. Working out is such a stress release for me, and it is a vicious cycle for me that whenever I get out of the routine I feel crappy so I can't get myself motivated to go, but I know that if I go, I will feel better.

And... I am in a bible study that I am really enjoying, but I am not doing all the work that I should be. I am reading and journaling what I am supposed to, but I am doing it all the day before we meet, and it should be spread out over the course of the week. I know that if I was in the word everyday I would feel better too.

Ok, so I just vented... but seriously that label maker I thought would make my life easier, but it is just causing me to loose sleep! UGH!

After writing this I decided that I really do just want this blog to about our family... not me. But I can't cut and paste this... So I am posting this, and it will be the last one about me.LOL... So, if you are heaving a sigh of relief... you're welcome... If you like the posts about me, I am going to have a different blog for myself. It is donna-wilson.blogspot.com. It is kind of nice to be able to talk about what I am going through... but it not take up the family blog.

just some feelings...

Last night I got really sick. Really sick. I thought I might just die with my head in the toilet. Ugh. This morning I woke up with a massive headache. I felt better a little later on in the morning after I took some Excedrin. But still sick all day long.
Today I was really cranky... and so were the boys. Not a good combo. I really hope that Parker isn't getting sick. Conner was throwing up last week, so I guess I have whatever he had? Today Parker took a 3 hour nap, which he desperately needed, because he was SOOOO cranky this morning.
Now for the feelings... Not that I need to post my shortcomings online, but I am going to anyway. Maybe someone will feel like just as horrible a mom as I, and let me know so I don't feel so bad.
Anyway, lately I have been sooo much more aware of my sinful nature. I mean I have always known that I am a sinner, but I have always thought that I am a pretty good person. Well, lately I have realized that there really is no such thing as a pretty good person. Not to mention that lately I don't even feel like I am in that good person category I used to put myself in, if it existed. I don't know if this is all festering because I am sick or what... but tonight I am sad. I want so desperately for these two boys and Darin to know that I love them. That I would do anything for them. That my life has so much more meaning with them in it, and that they mean the world to me. However, in day to day life, I feel like I am just a failure of a mom in the love aspect. They are bathed, and in clean clothes everyday. They are where they need to be for different events that they need or want to be at. I take them fun places and I do fun things with them. All of this when I think about it = LOVE.... however I feel like sometimes my attitude suggests otherwise. Today was hard. I didn't feel good all day, and something was up with the boys too. I had told Conner yesterday (before the sickness set in) that I would take them to the zoo today after their nap. Well, it would have been wise for me to check on the zoo's website before promising that.... because the zoo closes at 5. Conner didn't wake up from his nap until 3:30 and the zoo is an hour away. Not to mention the fact that Parker didn't wake up until 4:45. So we will try again Friday. I really wanted to take them. Conner really wanted to go. It honestly broke my heart not to be able to keep my word to him. I really don't even know where I am going with all this. Just feeling really inadequate. I'm sure its this flu or whatever that is pushing me down in the dumps... But I just wanted to get it out. For all of the Internet to see.LOL... See, I am an inadequate mom.
This week in my bible study I was really convicted by Romans 13:8. I can't quote it word for word, but I will give you the general idea. It said something like have no debt, except the eternal debt of love for one another. I don't know why this verse hit me as it did, but it totally made me realize that I am not contributing in love to anyone the way that I would like to. The way that God intended, and I am definitely not displaying God's love through my life.
So, more than wanting someone to tell me that they are a horrible mom-:) I would really appreciate prayer. That God would soften my heart. That I would be able to have love freely flowing through me day in and day out. To everyone. Always.
Thank you.